Today was difficult.
Work involved a mom whose 9 year old was molested by one of her closest family members as she was checking into shelter. She had serious PTSD, bipolar disorder, and substance abuse issues. Luckily, however, after speaking with her on the phone she requested to my boss that she do her intake with me because I made her feel the most comfortable.
It also involved a 22 year old who had been in and out of foster care her entire life who was crying because her current boyfriend called her a "dumb ass bitch."
She's in this shelter, so she has already been a victim of domestic abuse or sexual assault.
After being in foster care her entire life and feeling unwanted by every single person around her, she finally has her life on track. She is going to cosmetology school in 16 days. She was approved for section eight housing. She is finally in a place where a future is in sight and could possibly stand on her own two feet for the first time in her entire life.
Yet she struggles with her relationship. Her current boyfriend isn't happy for her success and doesn't want her to move forward with her life. He keeps calling her names and doesn't see her future. He is another domestic violence, controlling bastard in the works.
All I could do is listen and hold back my own tears.
I was worn out by the end of the day, to say the least.
Usually I look forward to a chat with my loving boyfriend to ease my mind at the end of the day...
Except he got in a rollover accident tonight.
All passengers are okay, but I'm still freaked and anxiously waiting for him to get home.
Day to day life isn't easy, but certain circumstances make us realize just how blessed we are.
Today is the beginning of a new month (and my birthday week!).
I'm going to make the most of it.
Here's to March and all of the marvelous moments it brings.
While work has been slow, I have taken out a piece of paper and listed everything I am grateful for over the past 6 weeks I have been there. It really does turn my day around and help me refocus my thoughts.
So here are my grateful thoughts for on March 1:
A warm bed
A loving boyfriend
And his safety after a rollover accident
Food in my fridge
Sunshine during cold, gloomy days
My health after an ED
Friends who care
Cousins who are like siblings
Graduation in a year and 8 weeks!
Field Placement and my final year of school approaching
Parent's support - always and unconditional
Halfway through this semester!
Have the GPA I need (and then some) to get into my grad school of choice
Cute kids at work and smiles
The list goes on and on. I have so much to be grateful for in my daily life and that is what inspired my Marvelous March. Please feel free to join me (even on your worst days) on my quest for gratitude. Even if you find three minutes of silence during your day to refocus, like I have, it makes a huge difference.
Here's to a new month and a daily awareness of gratitude.