Wednesday, July 8, 2015

Welcome Back, Kelsi

I recently had three of my favorite people tell me they missed my writing. They weren't concerned with sharing it on social media or how I went about writing, they just wanted to know whether or not I kept up with it. To be honest, no I have not kept up with my writing. Whether it be through this blog or a personal journal (which I failed to keep), I have not been writing.

There are few things in my recovery that have helped me more than writing. I'm not sure if its a sense of mental discharge/clearance or if its the support I receive through followers (probably a combo of both), but it definitely provides a sense of relief while dealing with life.

Sure, I still struggle with my body image, even though I am nowhere near overweight. Sure, I still struggle with my social acceptance among those around me, even though I'm perfectly capable of having a strong conversation. Sure, I still struggle with being an adult, because most of my other 27 year old friends are married and have kids. 

Bottom line - I still struggle. I might be able to keep my eating disordered symptoms under control, but I still struggle.

I think one of the most difficult parts of recovery is admitting when things are hard. Just this past weekend, I had a conversation with my parents stating the need of further help and it was one of the most difficult conversations I've had in years.

I am Kelsi and I am supposed to be "recovered." 
But I'm not. 
Life is hard.
 It's difficult to realize there is no set time line set in place. 
I'll get there when I need to. 
Period.

So here's to the welcoming back of Progression Obsession.
Here's to progress in more ways than in the eating disorder world.
Here's to the difficulties of becoming a young adult and proving yourself.
 Here's to the student loans and realizing you don't have to know what you want to do for the rest of your life at 18 years old.
Here's to meal planning, my culinary arts degree, and making our grocery budget stretch.
Here's to youtube yoga and daily walks.

Here's to happiness and a wellness comeback.

Progress


14 comments:

  1. Welcome back, Kelsi! Good to hear from you again. :)

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    1. Means so much from you, pretty lady!! :)

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  2. Yay! Glad to see you're writing again!

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    1. Means the most from you, Carrie!!! :-)

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  3. Welcome back, Kelsi! I'm so excited to be reading your words again. <3

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    1. Thanks Chelsie! Always nice to hear from you :)

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  4. Yes! Your blog is still in my "favorites" tab. So glad to see that you're still kicking butt! :)

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    1. Thank you! Let me know if there are any topics you''d like me to discuss :)

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  5. What a treat to see the Progression Obsession message in my otherwise boring email list. I have learned a great deal from you, Kels, and look forward to new insights from your writing. A. Judy

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    1. Thanks so much! Means the most from you! <3

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  6. Welcome back, Kelsi. So nice to read your posts here again. You have helped me so much for my recovery, and thank you. Your recovery has been blossomed beautifully <3

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    1. Hey, thanks!! And so sorry for being so distant.. Glad you are still here!! xoxo

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