Tuesday, July 23, 2013

25 Questions

Lately I have been a little sick of talking, thinking, and writing about eating disorders. My recovery motivation and positive outlook have returned, but sometimes a girl just needs a break from all this food and feelings talk. 

I can't take total credit for the idea of this post because this lady (click here) did it first a few weeks ago, but I don't think she'll mind me borrowing the idea. Some of you have told me you read my blog faithfully (which is still hard for me to believe), but what do you actually know about me besides I'm recovering from an eating disorder? Let's switch up the content of this blog for a day.

What was your favorite food as a child?
Chocolate cake with chocolate frosting and chocolate ice cream
What color are your eyes?
Green
 Whats your first thought upon waking up?
I need to brush my teeth.
Whats the best way to your heart?
Someone who genuinely cares, makes me laugh, doesn't ever date another girl at the same time, and brings me lots of chocolate.
 Do you think Barbie is a negative role model for young girls?
Well considering Barbie doesn't have a brain, yes, she's a bad role model. But I also think we are completely over thinking this whole barbie issue. Eating disorders develop for reasons much deeper than a stupid doll.
Who is your best friend?
Miss Kaila :) She has stood by me through thick and thin... literally.

What is your favorite quote?
"Discontent is the first step towards PROGRESS."
What chore do you absolutely hate doing?
Folding laundry. Not so much doing laundry, but folding is the worst. In fact, I have a basket of unfolded, wrinkly laundry in my room right now.
What is your favorite time of day/day of the week/month of the year?
I'm a morning person. My brain gets really mushy and blurry by the end of the day.
Friday and September.
What sound do you love?
The gargling sound my coffee maker makes when a fresh pot is almost finished. Ahhhh.
If you could choose to stay a certain age forever, what age would it be?
Probably 5th grade. I was the tallest kid in school, won a writing contest, and I didn't have a care in the world.
When was your last great meal?
With a culinary arts degree, my idea of a great meal is probably different than most. It's been at least a year and a half, but I was also very sick at the time, so I doubt I was actually enjoying the meal. Sounds to me like I need a fine dining experience in the near future.
Most played song on your iPod?
Yes, Kaila, this song is still on repeat most days. And I like the version you sent me even better.


When you have 30 minutes of free-time, how do you pass the time?
Let's be honest - Nap.
What was the last experience that made you a stronger person?
This question makes me laugh a little. It's safe to bet you can all guess the answer... Progress.
At what age did you become an adult?
Will I ever become an adult? Sometimes I wonder if my 50 year old dad is an adult yet.  
 Which is the one television character that you simply adore?
The oh-so-fabulous Carrie Bradshaw.
What makes you angry?
I don't get angry very easily but I have a hard time with dishonesty and feeling like I have been used/taken advantage of.
If you could learn to do anything, what would it be?
Turn off my brain at the end of the day and turn it back on after 8 hours of sleep.
Who do you resemble most in your family?
I don't think any of us look that much alike, but people tell me I'm the spitting image of my mom.


If you won the lottery, what is the first thing you would do?
Buy a smart phone because I'm the only person left in the world without one.
Democrat or republican?
Yikes. Touchy subject in my house. Let's just say my mom would disown me if she knew.
Who did you see at your first concert?
Oh how embarrassing... 98 Degrees haha.
What is your favorite book ever?
Tough question. I've read both The Perks of Being a Wallflower and The Fault in Our Stars several times so we'll go with those two.
If given a complete freedom to start afresh, what profession would you choose and why?
Exactly what I'm doing with my life right now. I have been given a fresh start - how lucky am I?! I am going into social work specializing in eating disorders with the hopes of helping others fight their own inner demons someday. 

I might have slipped a few eating disorder related things in there but 1.) recovery is a part of my life right now and 2.) I'm okay with that. My eating disorder doesn't define me anymore. I am finally starting to see the Real Kelsi beat up on the Eating Disorder Kelsi a little more each day. Eating Disorder Kelsi has been reduced to a weak whisper. I can still hear her sometimes, but the Real Kelsi has done a pretty good job at getting angry and fighting back. 

Progress.

20 comments:

  1. im stealing this!!! I have felt the same way about blogging about my ED... sometimes you just need a break :)

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Steal away, Em! And enjoy your break. <3

      Delete
  2. This touched my heart!
    Great job girl!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thanks Mariah - Hope you're having a great summer!

      Delete
  3. I honestly love reading your posts! I stumbled across this blog and went back and read it from beginning to end. It has been such a big inspiration and help for me as I take this journey. Thank you for always being real(:

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thanks so much! I'm excited to have you along this journey with me. Keep up the good work! xx

      Delete
  4. As I began to read this, I thought of something that you would go on to say later in the post, that you are finding more and more of the real you, that your ed doesn't define you. That is great, and I know I enjoyed reading those things about you. You are blossoming...with new "leaves" and "petals" yet to come! I might have to do a post like this soon to help break my writer's block...might get my thoughts moving! Have a blessed day!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Yes - you totally should do a post like this! It is nice to take a break from all the ED talk and let your brain think about other things. I was stressing about what I was going to write about next. I mean, how many ED posts can we come up with?! Definitely worth the break! :)

      Delete
  5. I will match your 98 degrees and raise you an Aaron Carter!! :P Sigh. I guess that's our generation though.

    You know what struck me ... how normal this is. And I think that if I answered it, mine would be too. We aren't girls recovering from eating disorders. We're girls. Period. Keep living your life with the awareness you've gained. You might feel like you still have a long way to go, but this makes it clear that you're infinitely closer than you once were. <3

    ReplyDelete
  6. Aaron Carter!! Ahhhhh that's pretty impressive haha. I really like what you said about us being girls. Period. Sometimes I get so caught up in being this abnormal freak because of my ED but maybe that's not true at all. It's one small part of who I am and nothing more. Thanks, Chels! <3

    ReplyDelete
  7. Ok, I did it too! 25 questions sure took longer than I'd guessed they would--where did the evening go?? :)

    ReplyDelete
  8. It's great to learn more about you, aside from the ED ! Of course it does not define you : you're so much than this :) Btw I still don't have a smartphone either, and thought I was the only person in the world. Good to know we're at least two ;D

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Haha yes, Sonia! It is great to know there are at least two of us left in this world. Hope you're doing great! :)

      Delete